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Posted: June 10, 2011 in feelings, madness, random, rant

Its a little scary how I just cant get myself to write anymore. No thought stays in my mind for me to actually put it in words. And that scares me. A little more than I’d like to admit.

Let me rephrase,
It all seems a haze
Faces, places and big spiral mazes
florescent, incandescent – a mighty blaze

Things that hold no meaning
are clutched close to heart
And the ones that did matter
lay crinkled, drenched and homeless.

Pieces of this puzzle
gather dust
While a loud, obnoxious song
blasts in the background.

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Posted: December 17, 2010 in blah, random

So I have decided that I am putting this shit to an end. Feelings I mean. The ones that I adored at one point of time.

And so I have decided to go numb. Once again.

And offcourse, I go under hibernation.

I feel starting an entry is the hardest. It takes me the longest to write that first line. Guess I am not that skilled, YET. I am on the road. And yes, I am improving.

A dyslectic copywriter, who cant get a single spelling right. HAHA! Thank god for spell check. You made my dream come true! or well, atleast – I am on the road. Towards it. (its a long LONG journey ahead)

I am in the office like any other morning. I have nothing to do . Like any other day. I wonder everyday whether I made the right decision. I am wondering it right now. Dreams too have some unpleasantries. (I silently thank spell check again)

Endless possibilities. Still awaits me. This god damn weather makes me sooooo f-ing lazy. No, its not funny. I am not laughing. Though, I do feel like taking a nap. *yawn*

I muse if living in past memories is the right thing. I have soo much free time on my hands that the past memories have started haunting me. Oh well, who am I kidding, its me who has been stalking them. Maybe its the 2-weeks-before-my-birthday effect.

Strangely enough I feel quite pensive today. I need to take a trip. To somewhere . To someplace. The other trip would work too. But I don’t see it happening. If you know what I mean. *sigh*

I am happy that I am living like I always imagined. I am unhappy coz the work part isn’t satisfying enough. Every one says, enjoy it while it lasts. I cant wait for it to get over. Laziness isn’t good. Not for me. NOT AT ALL.

While I re-read my post, (thanks to copy checking, its now a habit) it reminds me of the times when I travel by road glued to the window seat. Soo much to see. And before you can observe and absorb it, its gone. Like flash. Like spark. Like vision. Reality? Figment of imagination? WHAT! … This post doesn’t really make any sense. I just needed to rant I guess.

…There are moments. And then, there are some more…

Rob: yes?
me: i still havent found what i am looking for
Rob: what u lookin for ,girl?
me: a beautiful day
Rob: ohhh…
create it
me: where the streets have no name
Rob: name them
pyaar ki gaali
dildaar sadak
me: with or without you?
Rob: the road that has no name whose name is “the road that has no name, no shitting, thats the name of this road!”
me: with or without you?
Rob: with me and without me….or semi with me or semi without me or saying chuck it, am going alone
me: sometimes you cant make it alone
Rob: thats true….u cant sit in a rickshaw without a puller and say “chalo bhaiyaa” and expect it to move by itself
me: all i want is you
Rob: really….no food, no life, no trips for shopping, no movies, no pats on the back. no 10 million dollars, nothing?
me: all because of you
Rob: hain?
me: elevation
Rob: masturbation?
me: ■Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me
Rob: held, thrilled, kissed, bloody murdered.
me: god will send his angels