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Mourning the death of a friendship

Posted: December 20, 2012 in feelings, friends, love, rant
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I know I’ve said it before. I know I’ve been there before. 

People leave.

And no circumstances, misunderstandings or any damn reason can justify it. Just, has to fucking happen. It’s the way it is. You love. You lose. End of the story. After all, you cannot force someone to stay with you. 

People fucking leave.

And the funny part is, I had this very same conversation, with the person in question, just a day before the shit when down. “The problem with me, ***, is that I trust people way too easily.” “Don’t we all? You can’t help it.” Can’t help it, my ass. 

Today, I mourn the death of a friendship. One that meant a lot to me. I tried. More that I should have. Silly me. I will still value you. But I won’t stay.

So, goodbye.

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Posted: June 10, 2011 in feelings, madness, random, rant

Its a little scary how I just cant get myself to write anymore. No thought stays in my mind for me to actually put it in words. And that scares me. A little more than I’d like to admit.

Let me rephrase,
It all seems a haze
Faces, places and big spiral mazes
florescent, incandescent – a mighty blaze

Things that hold no meaning
are clutched close to heart
And the ones that did matter
lay crinkled, drenched and homeless.

Pieces of this puzzle
gather dust
While a loud, obnoxious song
blasts in the background.

Like all good things.

Posted: November 1, 2010 in blah, rant
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So as it turns out, this too came to an end.
And I really feel like a psychotic fuck.
The mad women in love turned out to be mad women alright. But the love part *ahem*
Should I feel angry? or sad? or mad? or frustrated? or heart broken? or lonely? or depressed? or free? or liberated? or hate? or love?
The funny part is, I feel it all. HAHA. The joke is on me.
Fuck you bastard. You are gonna be alright. Well, din’t you see it coming? haha. Fool. …and so my mind trips on me, calling me names, embracing me, scolding me. Its like my mind is another person.
Well yes, now you know i really am psychotic.

Did you see it coming?

I feel starting an entry is the hardest. It takes me the longest to write that first line. Guess I am not that skilled, YET. I am on the road. And yes, I am improving.

A dyslectic copywriter, who cant get a single spelling right. HAHA! Thank god for spell check. You made my dream come true! or well, atleast – I am on the road. Towards it. (its a long LONG journey ahead)

I am in the office like any other morning. I have nothing to do . Like any other day. I wonder everyday whether I made the right decision. I am wondering it right now. Dreams too have some unpleasantries. (I silently thank spell check again)

Endless possibilities. Still awaits me. This god damn weather makes me sooooo f-ing lazy. No, its not funny. I am not laughing. Though, I do feel like taking a nap. *yawn*

I muse if living in past memories is the right thing. I have soo much free time on my hands that the past memories have started haunting me. Oh well, who am I kidding, its me who has been stalking them. Maybe its the 2-weeks-before-my-birthday effect.

Strangely enough I feel quite pensive today. I need to take a trip. To somewhere . To someplace. The other trip would work too. But I don’t see it happening. If you know what I mean. *sigh*

I am happy that I am living like I always imagined. I am unhappy coz the work part isn’t satisfying enough. Every one says, enjoy it while it lasts. I cant wait for it to get over. Laziness isn’t good. Not for me. NOT AT ALL.

While I re-read my post, (thanks to copy checking, its now a habit) it reminds me of the times when I travel by road glued to the window seat. Soo much to see. And before you can observe and absorb it, its gone. Like flash. Like spark. Like vision. Reality? Figment of imagination? WHAT! … This post doesn’t really make any sense. I just needed to rant I guess.

…There are moments. And then, there are some more…